Monday, February 5, 2018

New Book Of Shadows, Getting Butt In Gear

Hey All,
I have been slacking like crazy, I totally missed Ibolc, I am feeling out of the loop and I know I haven't been on top of things with posting about the Sabbatts  and such. So what I will do for the upcoming one which is Ostara in March, I'll put a sticky note on my computer and make sure I do a blog post about that day.  My depression has been kicking my butt.  Also trying to get my book written, I have started the first chapter and that has been taking up my time as well.  Remember awhile back I ordered a book of shadows from Andria Pettell aka Aradia, owner of magickally made on Etsy, and it turned out to be a scam?  I swore I would never buy anything again off of anyone like that well....after a couple of years and a few months I found http://www.brahmsbookworks.com/grimoiremenu.html  and this will be my new book of shadows, I will buy it on the 13th of this month, it will take 16 weeks for them to make it and ship it and they send it UPS with signature required so I have to make sure I am home on the day it's going to be delivered, I will see about coming out of my comfort zone and doing a video on youtube doing an unboxing of it when it gets here.  All I keep thinking is please don't let them be a scam as well.


The cover is real leather, hand tanned and dyed, the metal is hand crafted by the maker of the book.  I am putting my trust out there again and trying again, the book I made for myself isn't calling to me and when I made it I had a lot of anger and frustration and I think I poured that into my book, so I feel like I can't use it, I will have to cleanse it and then put in good energy and see if that calls to me again.  With this book, I am trying to decide if I want ribbons or not to put the charms on that I have, or no ribbons or one big black one or silver one...decisions decisions.

Sunday, January 14, 2018

Homemade Creamy Mac and Cheese.

Hey there everyone, hope you are doing well. I got on the scale and I am 346.8 , I was at 385.  I was craving mac and cheese, and I had no flour, I ended up making some and omg, it turned out great, I'll share my recipe here for you. 

1/2 package of Egg noodles, you can use elbow macaroni, ( I didn't have any)
1 package of cream cheese

1 cup to 1/2 half cups of shredded cheddar

2 tablespoons of butter
 Milk enough to make creamy to how you like
Boil pasta according to directions in a pot

drain and let sit

Melt butter in pot add in cream cheese, stir until creamy, making sure not to scorch it add in cheese and milk and stir until cheese is melted, add in pasta and gently mix, I season mine with pepper.  I know this isn't exactly healthy but better than the boxed kind, this will serve about two- four, if you need to serve more just add in more pasta and I believe the other ingredients will be enough, I was just experimenting.  If you try it let me know what you think and what you added to make it better or to be different.

Friday, January 5, 2018

Happy New Year and Youtube?

Hey Everyone, Merry Meet.

Sorry it's been almost a month since I posted, I have been getting back into my healthier me lifestyle, I am thinking about doing youtube videos about my journey of weight loss, Not sure yet as I am really camera shy and such. Last time I weighed myself I was at 348, making my loss at 37 pounds.  When I started this journey I was 385, I am taking it off really slowly. I just, today got to where I did ten mins on the stationary bike and then while in the kitchen doing dishes I started stepping in place.  I have cut my sodium down a lot, I make my own taco seasoning, I use organic no salt season, red chili powder, garlic powder and some cumin powder, I make it to taste so really no measurements, it works great as a seasoning for tacos, I have also found Better Than Bullion, for making homemade chicken noodle soup, I use three table spoons in one pot so that equals 65 mg of sodium for one cup of soup. I have cut my meat consumption down, I eat mostly chicken, and some fish, and very rarely will I have red meat.  I have cut my coke zero habit down to one a week now, and found a wonderful yogurt that I like that has low sugar, it's Dannon Light and Fit Greek Yogurt, with only seven grams of sugar, I also found Roasted Garlic Triscuits, omg ya'll those are the bomb. Sorry am channeling Ember HoneyRaven.  Trying to also get my water consumption up to 128 ounces of water a day, been only doing 64-80 so not good, my skin is suffering for it.  My goal for this year is to keep doing what I am doing and cutting out sugar, I got rid of excess salt, now it's time to get rid of excess sugar. I hope you are all doing well and that you have a wonderful year and, oh what do you think if I started a Youtube channel, would you watch?

Thursday, December 7, 2017

Just To Say Hi and Ember Honey Raven


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Hello and Merry Meet Ya'll, yes I used to say ya'll and broke myself of that when I moved here to California, as no one here talks that way, I am from the Midwest, Missouri/Arkansas area, and I slipped back into the habit after listening to Ember HoneyRaven on Youtube, if you don't know who she is please look her up, she is a hoot and I just love her videos, she is a witch, and has done an amazing job of getting rid of a lot of weight, she has two channels, one is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8_BDwE94TSQ Big Fat Life, and the other is Ember Honeyraven. When I first started watching her she had a ton of videos up but had to take them down due to personal reasons that are hers to talk about, not mine, I am hoping she will eventually post all of them back up, but I just love her down to earthness and her attitude, she speaks her mind and isn't worried about what anyone else thinks, she has great haul videos on things that she buys and things that she has tried.  I was watching her weight loss videos and I am like she is so spot on with what she says, I am like her I weigh about 350, I was at 385,  she was at 334, I have tired every diet out there, hasn't worked for me, there was one time I did loose 80 pounds but I ended up back sliding and just went back to my ways, I have since started the DASH Diet, but for me I just don't feel like it's for me, I know I need to watch my sodium, I know I need to cut the junk, which as I have, now my goal is to get rid of soda and to get up and move more, I was watching her food haul videos and jotted a bunch of what she buys down and am going to go shopping and get a lot of that, and it's about portion control and will power and just getting into that mind set of doing it, as she says you are your own worst enemy. 
My knees and back are starting to hurt again as I have slacked off on working out, I just don't have the motivation and I hate working out, I mean I am not going to the gym but I was doing DDP yoga and it does work, I just have to get into the mindset, ya'll all I have had today to eat was two hard boiled eggs and some low sodium turkey bacon at about 11am pst time, and it's now almost three, I really need to up my calories, to about 2000 a day, I think I'll post Ember and ask her what her calorie intake is or was day to day, I think mine will be about 2000, but I need to eat, I skip meals a lot, and I hold the weight on, I also don't move around much either, I can't as my knees hurt. So hearing her and when she said she had those same issues and seeing her success, I know I can do this as well, and I do agree with her, just because someone is big doesn't mean they aren't worth anything, or not beautiful, what a person looks like doesn't make them beautiful it's their attitude and how they treat others.  

Wednesday, December 6, 2017

Yule.

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Hello my fellow witches and wiccans, Yule will be upon us once again. This will be my second Yule since becoming a Wiccan/Witch. 

For those that are new to the Path and Craft and seeking information about Yule, you've come to the right place.  From what I have learned is that Yule falls on December 21st and lasts for 12 days.  

This was a time to celebrate return of the Sun and the rebirth of the Oak King or the Sun King. Bonfires would be lit and trees were decorated and toasted with spiced cider. Children would go about house to house with  gifts of clove spiked apples and oranges which were laid in baskets of evergreen boughs and wheat stalks dusted with flour. The apples and oranges represented the sun.  The boughs were symbolic of immortality (evergreens were sacred to the Celts because they did not "die" thereby representing the eternal aspect of the Divine). The wheat stalks portrayed the harvest, and the flour was accomplishment of triumph, light, and life. Holly and ivy not only decorated the outside, but also the inside of homes, in hopes Nature Sprites would come and join the celebration. A sprig of Holly was kept near the door all year long as a constant invitation for good fortune to visit tthe residents. Mistletoe was also hung as decoration.  It represented the seed of the Divine, and at Midwinter, the Druids would travel deep into the forest to harvest it.

The ceremonial Yule log was the highlight of the Solstice festival. In accordance to tradition, the log must either have been harvested from the householder's land, or given as a gift... it must never have been bought. Once dragged into the house and placed in the fireplace it was decorated in seasonal greenery, doused with cider or ale, and dusted with flour before set ablaze by a piece of last years log, (held onto for just this purpose). The log would burn throughout the night, then smolder for 12 days after before being ceremonially put out. Ash is the traditional wood of the Yule log. It is the sacred world tree of the Teutons, known as Yggdrasil. An herb of the Sun, Ash brings light into the hearth at the Solstice.

A different type of Yule log, and perhaps one more suitable for modern practitioners would be the type that is used as a base to hold three candles. Find a smaller branch of oak or pine, and flatten one side so it sets upright. Drill three holes in the top side to hold red, green, and white (season), green, gold, and black (the Sun God), or white, red, and black (the Great Goddess). Continue to decorate with greenery, red and gold bows, rosebuds, cloves, and dust with flour.


Many customs created around Yule are identified with Christmas today.  If you decorate your home with a Yule tree, holly or candles, you are following some of these old traditions.   The Yule log, (usually made from a piece of wood saved from the previous year) is burned in the fire to symbolize the Newborn Sun/Son.

Deities of Yule:  All Newborn Gods, Sun Gods, Mother Goddesses, and Triple Goddesses. The best known would be the Dagda, and Brighid, the daughter of the Dagda. Brighid taught the smiths the arts of fire tending and the secrets of metal work. Brighid's flame, like the flame of the new light, pierces the darkness of the spirit and mind, while the Dagda's cauldron assures that Nature will always provide for all the children. Symbolism of Yule:
Rebirth of the Sun, The longest night of the year, The Winter Solstice, Introspect, Planning for the Future.
Symbols of Yule:
Yule log, or small Yule log with 3 candles, evergreen boughs or wreaths, holly, mistletoe hung in doorways, gold pillar candles, baskets of clove studded fruit, a simmering pot of wassail, poinsettias, christmas cactus.
Herbs of Yule:
Bayberry, blessed thistle, evergreen, frankincense holly, laurel, mistletoe, oak, pine, sage, yellow cedar.
Foods of Yule:
Cookies and caraway cakes soaked in cider, fruits, nuts, pork dishes, turkey, eggnog, ginger tea, spiced cider, wassail, or lamb's wool (ale, sugar, nutmeg, roasted apples).
Incense of Yule:
Pine, cedar, bayberry, cinnamon.
Colors of Yule:
Red, green, gold, white, silver, yellow, orange.
Stones of Yule:
Rubies, bloodstones, garnets, emeralds, diamonds.
Activities of Yule:
Caroling, wassailing the trees, burning the Yule log, decorating the Yule tree, exchanging of presents, kissing under the mistletoe, honoring Kriss Kringle the Germanic Pagan God of Yule
Spellworkings of Yule:
Peace, harmony, love, and increased happiness.
Deities of Yule:
Goddesses-Brighid, Isis, Demeter, Gaea, Diana, The Great Mother. Gods-Apollo, Ra, Odin, Lugh, The Oak King, The Horned One, The Green Man, The Divine Child, Mabon.
As a new wiccan/witch myself I did find this article by Selena Fox Helpful on ways to celebrate Yule

13 Ways to Celebrate Yuletide

by Selena Fox

  1. Create a Pagan Winter Solstice framework for the entire holidays season - understand that Christmas Eve and Christmas, New Year's Eve and New Year's Day have their origins in Winter Solstice celebrations of a variety of Pagan cultures through the ages.
  2. Decorate your home with sacred plants connected with Winter Solstice: evergreen wreaths & boughs, mistletoe, holly, and ivy. Learn about the Pagan symbolism of each.
  3. Harvest a Yule tree in a sacred way from a tree farm that practices sustainable agriculture, if you can, or intuitively select a tree, cut or symbolic, from a shop in your area. Set up the Yule tree in your home and decorate it with lights, sun symbols, and other images. Reflect on blessings of joy, renewal, and well-wishes as you decorate the tree.
  4. Kindle lights to represent the Sun. Decorate with electric lights and candles. On one of the nights of Solstice, turn off all lights, experience the longest night, reflect on renewal and peace, and turn the lights back on to symbolize the birth of the New Solar Year.
  5. Recognize Santa as a multi-cultural, multi-religious character - learn about the Pagan roots of Santa and other Winter Solstice sacred gift bringers, including the Goddess Holda (see my article: When Santa was a Woman on beliefnet for more info).
  6. Learn about holidays foods, symbols, customs, and/or lore from an ancestral ethnicity and incorporate something you have learned into your celebration of Yuletide.
  7. Listen to Pagan Yuletide music. Create a Yuletide chant, poem, or song.
  8. Burn a Yule Log in a hearth, in a bonfire, or by burning candles on, in, or near a log of Oak on an altar. Learn about Yule Log traditions and create your own.
  9. Meditate on the rising and/or setting of the Solstice Sun. Note its position on the horizon at this time of year and observe its change in position on the horizon as the days start lengthening again.
  10. Join with others in celebrating Pagan Yuletide. Attend a ritual, be part of a festival, join an on-line discussion, host a party, listen to a Yuletide show on internet radio (I will be doing 3 podcasts this Yule!)
  11. Contribute to a charity of your choice. Spread the joy of Yuletide.
  12. Learn about sacred sites aligned with the Winter Solstice. Envision your own celebrations of Winter Solstice being part of a vast network of Solstice celebrations happening around the planet (Winter in the Northern hemisphere & Summer in the South). Watch live video of Winter Solstice at New Grange or other sacred site with coverage.
  13. Focus on world peace and planetary well-being in your rituals, meditations, prayers, and other workings. Peace-making was part of Winter Solstice among many peoples in the past. Keep this tradition alive in the present and future.
 https://www.circlesanctuary.org/index.php/celebrating-the-seasons/13-ways-to-celebrate-yuletide
Here is a handy website for which food you can make and serve during the Yuletide season  http://recipesforapagansoul.weebly.com/yule-dec-21-23.html.
I hope this information helps you and that you have a blessed Yule, please drop me a comment on what you and yours do for the Yule season. As always blessed be and merry meet and merry part. 

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Getting Back To Basics

Merry Meet All,
Do you remember the first time your God and Goddess called out to you, or when you chose the path you are on? I have always been interested in the wiccan way since I was about 12, never really practiced it until a couple of years ago.  I was raised in a household that are Southern Baptist and everything else was satanic, it wasn't the extreme where I couldn't go trick or treating or anything like that, but any other religion was not good.  I never felt happy going to church, never felt like I was at home and that something was missing. Six years ago I moved here to San Diego to be with my fiancee, who is now my husband, and I was talking to him one day telling him that I wasn't sure where I fit in, I was raised Southern Baptist, and told him how it made me feel, I looked into being a Catholic, he suggested, from hearing me discuss how I felt, that I look into Wicca, or Paganism, I blinked and told him I have been interested in it since I was 12 and I think I will, I didn't know where to start, I was so lost, I started looking up things on the net, found books. Reading up on the different Gods and Goddesses, slowly started gathering things for my altar. I admit I am still learning and haven't really done much with the holidays, I need to start planning ahead and slowly gathering things that I need to decorate my altar and planning ahead the foods and rituals for the up coming holidays.  It wasn't until about a year ago that my God and Goddesses found me, Danu and The Morrigan, and The Horned God. I hear a calling in my soul to get back to the basics and started reading the "starter" books and digging out my year and a day book and starting it again. I am feeling the yearning to learn and the yearning to be witchy, I feel like I am a wiccan and witch. 


The Rede of the Wiccae

(The Counsel Of The Wise Ones)


Bide the Wiccan Law ye must,In Perfect Love and Perfect Trust;


Live ye must and let to live,

Fairly take and fairly give.
True in love, ever be,
Lest thy love be false to thee.


With a fool no season spend,

Nor be counted as his friend.
Soft of eye and light of touch,
Speak ye little, listen much.


Ever mind the rule of three,

What ye send out comes back to thee.
This lesson well, thou must learn
Ye only get what ye do earn.


Eight words the Wiccan Rede fulfill -

An it harm none, do as ye will.


Deosil go by waxing Moon,

Sing and dance the invoking Rune;
Widdershins go by waning Moon,
Chant ye then a freeing tune;


When the Lady's Moon is new,

Kiss thy hand to Her times two;
When the Bow rides in the eve
Turn to what you would achieve;
When the Moon rides at her peak,
Then thy heart's desire seek;
When the Sickle shows Her face
Release the old with proper grace.


Greet the Days and greet the Nights

With joy and thanks for all delights.
Sing the seasons all around
Til wondrous awe and love abound


Heed the North wind's mighty gale,

Lock the door & trim the sail;
When the wind comes from the South,
Love will kiss thee on the mouth;


When the wind blows from the West,

Hearts will find their peace and rest;
When the wind blows from the East,
Expect the new and set the feast.


Nine woods in the Cauldron go,

Burn them quick and burn them slow;
Grape and fir and apple tree,
And Hawthorn are sacred to Thee,
Willow, hazel, rowan, birch,
And oak will guide your every search;
Elder be the Lady's tree -
Burn it not or cursed ye'll be.


Birchwood in the fire goes

To tell us true what Goddess knows.
Oak trees tower great with might,
Burn the Oak for God's insight.
Rowan is a tree of power
Causing life and magick to flower.
Willows at the waters stand
To help us to the Summerland.
Hawthorn burn to purify
And draw the faerie to your eye.
Hazel tree, the wisdom sage,
Lends strength that comes with honoured age.
White the flowers of Apple tree,
The holy gift of fecundity.
Grape grows upon the fruitful vine,
Sacred gifts of joy and wine.
Fir's ever greenness declares life
Succeeds beyond any strife.



Heed ye flower, bush, and tree,

And by the Lady Blessed be.
Where the rippling waters flow
Cast a stone and truth ye'll know;


Four times the Major Sabbats mark

In the light and in the dark:


As the old year starts to wane

The new begins with dark Samhain.
When flowers blossom through the snow
Fair Brighid casts her seed to sow.
When winter yields to warmth's return
Let the Beltane fires burn.
As summer turns to Lammas night
First fruits and Grain Gods reach their height.


Four times the Minor Sabbats fall

Use the Sun to mark them all:


At Yuletide, with feast and mirth

We celebrate the God Child's birth.
Spring Equinox, Eostara's fest,
All newborn creatures will be blessed.
When the Sun has reached its height
Celebrate the greatest Light.
Offer thanks at second reaping;
Mabon poised for winter's sleeping.


Cast the circle thrice about,

To keep unwelcome spirits out.
To bind the spell well every time,
Let the spell be spake in rhyme.


Follow this with mind & art,

Bright the cheeks and warm the heart,
And merry meet & merry part
And merry meet again!

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Thursday, November 9, 2017

Blood Pressure, DDP Yoga, and Me.

Hello and Merry Meet, 
 I want to talk about something serious, blood pressure, I have never thought about mine, it has been in the 150/92-86 range for as long as I can remember, never thought about it since I was feeling fine.  I went my psych appointment, my blood pressure was taken it was down 147/92, I was like sweet it's down, he informed me that if it keeps up and doesn't come down, I should go see a doctor and talk about getting on meds, Meds! nope no way no how, so now I am doing research, bought some hibiscus tea, reading up on dash plans and how to lower sodium, I have lost weight, went from 385 to 350, I started back up doing DDP Yoga again as of today, I broke down crying and said I am done with this, now it's time to get serious and start eating healthy, I know healthy foods don't taste as good as the junk food, fast food etc, I have cut sodium a lot but not enough, I still reach for the soda, coke zero sugar, which as it has caffeine. I still reach for the Doritos, and ice cream and reese's cups, but now it's time to stop, hubby brought home Harvest snap crisps, they are sugar snap peas fried or baked, very low fat and sodium and sugar, I was skeptical at first and then tried them and I love them. I think instead of counting calories I am going to worry about sodium and fat intake.

I today so far have had two hard boiled eggs, no salt no butter,(used to add salt and butter to them), one cup of greek yogurt, with fresh strawberries that my mother in law prepared for me and sent home with my darling hubby, she put some sugar in them but ah well, so I added that to the yogurt and ate that and I am stuffed, my goal is to eat more fruit and veggies, I hardly eat any, wasn't really raised by parents who were big veggie eaters either, it was either potatoes, green beans, corn, with red meat, mac and cheese and fries, and bread, a lot of processed foods, with salt, and butter and drinking three to four cans of soda a day, now I have one 20 ounce bottle a day, yesterday I didn't have one and my goal today is to not have one as well, my goal is to also drink two and a half liters of water a day. I need to do this, for my blood pressure, and for me. 

Breakfast:
Two Hard Boiled Eggs, no salt no butter = 124 mg of sodium and 3.2 grams of sat fat. 
Kirkland Organic Green Yogurt 50mg sodium. 
Water.

Exercise: 16 mins of DDP Yoga Chair Warrior, (starting over).