Mom,
I am sitting here listening to classic rock and I started to remember how you and I would go cruising in your little red car around town on a summers night with the windows down and the classic rock station turned up loud, listening to our favorite songs from the 80s and singing at the top of our lungs as we stopped for cokes on ice as you called them from Sonic. So many songs playing now that remind me of those days, having the music on in the house with the windows open and the summer breeze blowing in as we either cleaned house or sitting on the deck or in the swimming pool. I miss our talks that we used to have during those times and those times we didn't talk, I miss watching scary movies with you and how you had to watch Ghost Hunters, and how you and I had many talks about the paranormal and you told me that when you passed and there was an afterlife, you would come to me and give me the sign that we agreed upon that you would give me, I wish I could have those days back mom. It isn't fair that at the age of 56 you had to have your memories stolen by Alzheimer's and your spark and life taken. I know somewhere in there you are still there, I wish that you could become you again and listen to music with me once more. Mom I want you to know I am keeping the promise you made me keep to you and not come home to see you that way, I wish I could talk to you and I wish that you would remember me as I remember you. I want to thank you for everything mom, I want you to know that I am happy in my life, I am living in San Diego with Patrick, happily married and getting stronger each day, mom I am taking voice lessons and sang in front of the family, I sang Jolene by Dolly Parton, one of your favorite songs. No matter what mom as the old Bob Seger Song Said "You're Still The Same" you always will be in my memories.
