I know it's been awhile since I posted. So much has been going on. I am still doing my weight loss, I have gained and lost and gained again, I am trying to figure things out and do what is best for me, I am still going to therapy and I have started a youtube channel. My husband and I just celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary.
I still haven't talked to my "parents" I have cut all contact with them and I am feeling stronger everyday. I have almost finished writing one book. I am slowly trying to find the person I was once before, I know, I know, you can't be exactly who you were but I would love to find a bit of her inside of me of who I was once.
I have also decided to get a tattoo on my wrist a semicolon with butterfly wings. Even though I am terrified of needles. I am also going to get my hair colored, I love the reds and purples.
1) Get rid of weight and be healthy (I know eating on a regular basis, getting in enough calories to speed my metabolism, and keep exercising and cutting down on carbs and such)
2) Find the person I want to be (still not sure who that is)
3) Get one book published (need to finish it first, then find an editor and publisher)
4) Organize the house and get it clean and keep it that way (hubby needs to also pitch in by keeping his stuff picked up and cleaning up after himself and throwing away any packages he opens and helping out a bit.
5) Having more friends, (since my one friend hardly calls me or wants to hang out with me anymore as she can't pry herself away from her boyfriend long enough to remember she has a friend, so I need to get out more and find someone who isn't going to put me on the backburner all of the time)
6) Stop being so hard on myself...(I don't know how)
7) Start loving myself (I don't know how)
