Hey Everyone, Merry Meet.
Sorry it's been almost a month since I posted, I have been getting back into my healthier me lifestyle, I am thinking about doing youtube videos about my journey of weight loss, Not sure yet as I am really camera shy and such. Last time I weighed myself I was at 348, making my loss at 37 pounds. When I started this journey I was 385, I am taking it off really slowly. I just, today got to where I did ten mins on the stationary bike and then while in the kitchen doing dishes I started stepping in place. I have cut my sodium down a lot, I make my own taco seasoning, I use organic no salt season, red chili powder, garlic powder and some cumin powder, I make it to taste so really no measurements, it works great as a seasoning for tacos, I have also found Better Than Bullion, for making homemade chicken noodle soup, I use three table spoons in one pot so that equals 65 mg of sodium for one cup of soup. I have cut my meat consumption down, I eat mostly chicken, and some fish, and very rarely will I have red meat. I have cut my coke zero habit down to one a week now, and found a wonderful yogurt that I like that has low sugar, it's Dannon Light and Fit Greek Yogurt, with only seven grams of sugar, I also found Roasted Garlic Triscuits, omg ya'll those are the bomb. Sorry am channeling Ember HoneyRaven. Trying to also get my water consumption up to 128 ounces of water a day, been only doing 64-80 so not good, my skin is suffering for it. My goal for this year is to keep doing what I am doing and cutting out sugar, I got rid of excess salt, now it's time to get rid of excess sugar. I hope you are all doing well and that you have a wonderful year and, oh what do you think if I started a Youtube channel, would you watch?
Friday, January 5, 2018
Thursday, December 7, 2017
Just To Say Hi and Ember Honey Raven
Hello and Merry Meet Ya'll, yes I used to say ya'll and broke myself of that when I moved here to California, as no one here talks that way, I am from the Midwest, Missouri/Arkansas area, and I slipped back into the habit after listening to Ember HoneyRaven on Youtube, if you don't know who she is please look her up, she is a hoot and I just love her videos, she is a witch, and has done an amazing job of getting rid of a lot of weight, she has two channels, one is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8_BDwE94TSQ Big Fat Life, and the other is Ember Honeyraven. When I first started watching her she had a ton of videos up but had to take them down due to personal reasons that are hers to talk about, not mine, I am hoping she will eventually post all of them back up, but I just love her down to earthness and her attitude, she speaks her mind and isn't worried about what anyone else thinks, she has great haul videos on things that she buys and things that she has tried. I was watching her weight loss videos and I am like she is so spot on with what she says, I am like her I weigh about 350, I was at 385, she was at 334, I have tired every diet out there, hasn't worked for me, there was one time I did loose 80 pounds but I ended up back sliding and just went back to my ways, I have since started the DASH Diet, but for me I just don't feel like it's for me, I know I need to watch my sodium, I know I need to cut the junk, which as I have, now my goal is to get rid of soda and to get up and move more, I was watching her food haul videos and jotted a bunch of what she buys down and am going to go shopping and get a lot of that, and it's about portion control and will power and just getting into that mind set of doing it, as she says you are your own worst enemy.
My knees and back are starting to hurt again as I have slacked off on working out, I just don't have the motivation and I hate working out, I mean I am not going to the gym but I was doing DDP yoga and it does work, I just have to get into the mindset, ya'll all I have had today to eat was two hard boiled eggs and some low sodium turkey bacon at about 11am pst time, and it's now almost three, I really need to up my calories, to about 2000 a day, I think I'll post Ember and ask her what her calorie intake is or was day to day, I think mine will be about 2000, but I need to eat, I skip meals a lot, and I hold the weight on, I also don't move around much either, I can't as my knees hurt. So hearing her and when she said she had those same issues and seeing her success, I know I can do this as well, and I do agree with her, just because someone is big doesn't mean they aren't worth anything, or not beautiful, what a person looks like doesn't make them beautiful it's their attitude and how they treat others.
Wednesday, December 6, 2017
Yule.
Hello my fellow witches and wiccans, Yule will be upon us once again. This will be my second Yule since becoming a Wiccan/Witch.
For those that are new to the Path and Craft and seeking information about Yule, you've come to the right place. From what I have learned is that Yule falls on December 21st and lasts for 12 days.
This was a time to celebrate return of the Sun and the rebirth of the Oak King or the Sun King. Bonfires would be lit and trees were decorated and toasted with spiced cider. Children would go about house to house with gifts of clove spiked apples and oranges which were laid in baskets of evergreen boughs and wheat stalks dusted with flour. The apples and oranges represented the sun. The boughs were symbolic of immortality (evergreens were sacred to the Celts because they did not "die" thereby representing the eternal aspect of the Divine). The wheat stalks portrayed the harvest, and the flour was accomplishment of triumph, light, and life. Holly and ivy not only decorated the outside, but also the inside of homes, in hopes Nature Sprites would come and join the celebration. A sprig of Holly was kept near the door all year long as a constant invitation for good fortune to visit tthe residents. Mistletoe was also hung as decoration. It represented the seed of the Divine, and at Midwinter, the Druids would travel deep into the forest to harvest it.
The ceremonial Yule log was the highlight of the Solstice festival. In accordance to tradition, the log must either have been harvested from the householder's land, or given as a gift... it must never have been bought. Once dragged into the house and placed in the fireplace it was decorated in seasonal greenery, doused with cider or ale, and dusted with flour before set ablaze by a piece of last years log, (held onto for just this purpose). The log would burn throughout the night, then smolder for 12 days after before being ceremonially put out. Ash is the traditional wood of the Yule log. It is the sacred world tree of the Teutons, known as Yggdrasil. An herb of the Sun, Ash brings light into the hearth at the Solstice.
A different type of Yule log, and perhaps one more suitable for modern practitioners would be the type that is used as a base to hold three candles. Find a smaller branch of oak or pine, and flatten one side so it sets upright. Drill three holes in the top side to hold red, green, and white (season), green, gold, and black (the Sun God), or white, red, and black (the Great Goddess). Continue to decorate with greenery, red and gold bows, rosebuds, cloves, and dust with flour.
Many customs created around Yule
are identified with Christmas today. If you decorate your home
with a Yule tree, holly or candles, you are following some of these
old traditions. The Yule log, (usually made from a piece
of wood
saved from the previous year) is burned in the fire to symbolize the Newborn
Sun/Son.
Deities of Yule:
All Newborn Gods, Sun Gods, Mother Goddesses, and Triple Goddesses.
The best known would be the Dagda, and Brighid, the daughter of the
Dagda. Brighid taught the smiths the arts of fire tending and the
secrets of metal work. Brighid's flame, like the flame of the new
light, pierces the darkness of the spirit and mind, while the Dagda's
cauldron assures that Nature will always provide for all the children.
Symbolism of Yule:
Rebirth of the Sun, The longest night of the year, The Winter Solstice, Introspect, Planning for the Future. Symbols of Yule:
Yule log, or small Yule log with 3 candles, evergreen boughs or wreaths, holly, mistletoe hung in doorways, gold pillar candles, baskets of clove studded fruit, a simmering pot of wassail, poinsettias, christmas cactus. Herbs of Yule:
Bayberry, blessed thistle, evergreen, frankincense holly, laurel, mistletoe, oak, pine, sage, yellow cedar. Foods of Yule:
Cookies and caraway cakes soaked in cider, fruits, nuts, pork dishes, turkey, eggnog, ginger tea, spiced cider, wassail, or lamb's wool (ale, sugar, nutmeg, roasted apples). Incense of Yule:
Pine, cedar, bayberry, cinnamon. Colors of Yule:
Red, green, gold, white, silver, yellow, orange. Stones of Yule:
Rubies, bloodstones, garnets, emeralds, diamonds. Activities of Yule:
Caroling, wassailing the trees, burning the Yule log, decorating the Yule tree, exchanging of presents, kissing under the mistletoe, honoring Kriss Kringle the Germanic Pagan God of Yule Spellworkings of Yule:
Peace, harmony, love, and increased happiness. Deities of Yule:
Goddesses-Brighid, Isis, Demeter, Gaea, Diana, The Great Mother. Gods-Apollo, Ra, Odin, Lugh, The Oak King, The Horned One, The Green Man, The Divine Child, Mabon.
Rebirth of the Sun, The longest night of the year, The Winter Solstice, Introspect, Planning for the Future. Symbols of Yule:
Yule log, or small Yule log with 3 candles, evergreen boughs or wreaths, holly, mistletoe hung in doorways, gold pillar candles, baskets of clove studded fruit, a simmering pot of wassail, poinsettias, christmas cactus. Herbs of Yule:
Bayberry, blessed thistle, evergreen, frankincense holly, laurel, mistletoe, oak, pine, sage, yellow cedar. Foods of Yule:
Cookies and caraway cakes soaked in cider, fruits, nuts, pork dishes, turkey, eggnog, ginger tea, spiced cider, wassail, or lamb's wool (ale, sugar, nutmeg, roasted apples). Incense of Yule:
Pine, cedar, bayberry, cinnamon. Colors of Yule:
Red, green, gold, white, silver, yellow, orange. Stones of Yule:
Rubies, bloodstones, garnets, emeralds, diamonds. Activities of Yule:
Caroling, wassailing the trees, burning the Yule log, decorating the Yule tree, exchanging of presents, kissing under the mistletoe, honoring Kriss Kringle the Germanic Pagan God of Yule Spellworkings of Yule:
Peace, harmony, love, and increased happiness. Deities of Yule:
Goddesses-Brighid, Isis, Demeter, Gaea, Diana, The Great Mother. Gods-Apollo, Ra, Odin, Lugh, The Oak King, The Horned One, The Green Man, The Divine Child, Mabon.
As a new wiccan/witch myself I did find this article by Selena Fox Helpful on ways to celebrate Yule
13 Ways to Celebrate Yuletide
by Selena Fox- Create a Pagan Winter Solstice framework for the entire holidays season - understand that Christmas Eve and Christmas, New Year's Eve and New Year's Day have their origins in Winter Solstice celebrations of a variety of Pagan cultures through the ages.
- Decorate your home with sacred plants connected with Winter Solstice: evergreen wreaths & boughs, mistletoe, holly, and ivy. Learn about the Pagan symbolism of each.
- Harvest a Yule tree in a sacred way from a tree farm that practices sustainable agriculture, if you can, or intuitively select a tree, cut or symbolic, from a shop in your area. Set up the Yule tree in your home and decorate it with lights, sun symbols, and other images. Reflect on blessings of joy, renewal, and well-wishes as you decorate the tree.
- Kindle lights to represent the Sun. Decorate with electric lights and candles. On one of the nights of Solstice, turn off all lights, experience the longest night, reflect on renewal and peace, and turn the lights back on to symbolize the birth of the New Solar Year.
- Recognize Santa as a multi-cultural, multi-religious character - learn about the Pagan roots of Santa and other Winter Solstice sacred gift bringers, including the Goddess Holda (see my article: When Santa was a Woman on beliefnet for more info).
- Learn about holidays foods, symbols, customs, and/or lore from an ancestral ethnicity and incorporate something you have learned into your celebration of Yuletide.
- Listen to Pagan Yuletide music. Create a Yuletide chant, poem, or song.
- Burn a Yule Log in a hearth, in a bonfire, or by burning candles on, in, or near a log of Oak on an altar. Learn about Yule Log traditions and create your own.
- Meditate on the rising and/or setting of the Solstice Sun. Note its position on the horizon at this time of year and observe its change in position on the horizon as the days start lengthening again.
- Join with others in celebrating Pagan Yuletide. Attend a ritual, be part of a festival, join an on-line discussion, host a party, listen to a Yuletide show on internet radio (I will be doing 3 podcasts this Yule!)
- Contribute to a charity of your choice. Spread the joy of Yuletide.
- Learn about sacred sites aligned with the Winter Solstice. Envision your own celebrations of Winter Solstice being part of a vast network of Solstice celebrations happening around the planet (Winter in the Northern hemisphere & Summer in the South). Watch live video of Winter Solstice at New Grange or other sacred site with coverage.
- Focus on world peace and planetary well-being in your rituals, meditations, prayers, and other workings. Peace-making was part of Winter Solstice among many peoples in the past. Keep this tradition alive in the present and future.
I hope this information helps you and that you have a blessed Yule, please drop me a comment on what you and yours do for the Yule season. As always blessed be and merry meet and merry part.
Sunday, November 12, 2017
Getting Back To Basics
Merry Meet All,
Do you remember the first time your God and Goddess called out to you, or when you chose the path you are on? I have always been interested in the wiccan way since I was about 12, never really practiced it until a couple of years ago. I was raised in a household that are Southern Baptist and everything else was satanic, it wasn't the extreme where I couldn't go trick or treating or anything like that, but any other religion was not good. I never felt happy going to church, never felt like I was at home and that something was missing. Six years ago I moved here to San Diego to be with my fiancee, who is now my husband, and I was talking to him one day telling him that I wasn't sure where I fit in, I was raised Southern Baptist, and told him how it made me feel, I looked into being a Catholic, he suggested, from hearing me discuss how I felt, that I look into Wicca, or Paganism, I blinked and told him I have been interested in it since I was 12 and I think I will, I didn't know where to start, I was so lost, I started looking up things on the net, found books. Reading up on the different Gods and Goddesses, slowly started gathering things for my altar. I admit I am still learning and haven't really done much with the holidays, I need to start planning ahead and slowly gathering things that I need to decorate my altar and planning ahead the foods and rituals for the up coming holidays. It wasn't until about a year ago that my God and Goddesses found me, Danu and The Morrigan, and The Horned God. I hear a calling in my soul to get back to the basics and started reading the "starter" books and digging out my year and a day book and starting it again. I am feeling the yearning to learn and the yearning to be witchy, I feel like I am a wiccan and witch.
Bide the Wiccan Law ye must,In Perfect Love and Perfect Trust;
Live ye must and let to live,
Fairly take and fairly give.
True in love, ever be,
Lest thy love be false to thee.
With a fool no season spend,
Nor be counted as his friend.
Soft of eye and light of touch,
Speak ye little, listen much.
Ever mind the rule of three,
What ye send out comes back to thee.
This lesson well, thou must learn
Ye only get what ye do earn.
Eight words the Wiccan Rede fulfill -
An it harm none, do as ye will.
Deosil go by waxing Moon,
Sing and dance the invoking Rune;
Widdershins go by waning Moon,
Chant ye then a freeing tune;
When the Lady's Moon is new,
Kiss thy hand to Her times two;
When the Bow rides in the eve
Turn to what you would achieve;
When the Moon rides at her peak,
Then thy heart's desire seek;
When the Sickle shows Her face
Release the old with proper grace.
Greet the Days and greet the Nights
With joy and thanks for all delights.
Sing the seasons all around
Til wondrous awe and love abound
Heed the North wind's mighty gale,
Lock the door & trim the sail;
When the wind comes from the South,
Love will kiss thee on the mouth;
When the wind blows from the West,
Hearts will find their peace and rest;
When the wind blows from the East,
Expect the new and set the feast.
Nine woods in the Cauldron go,
Burn them quick and burn them slow;
Grape and fir and apple tree,
And Hawthorn are sacred to Thee,
Willow, hazel, rowan, birch,
And oak will guide your every search;
Elder be the Lady's tree -
Burn it not or cursed ye'll be.
Birchwood in the fire goes
To tell us true what Goddess knows.
Oak trees tower great with might,
Burn the Oak for God's insight.
Rowan is a tree of power
Causing life and magick to flower.
Willows at the waters stand
To help us to the Summerland.
Hawthorn burn to purify
And draw the faerie to your eye.
Hazel tree, the wisdom sage,
Lends strength that comes with honoured age.
White the flowers of Apple tree,
The holy gift of fecundity.
Grape grows upon the fruitful vine,
Sacred gifts of joy and wine.
Fir's ever greenness declares life
Succeeds beyond any strife.
Heed ye flower, bush, and tree,
And by the Lady Blessed be.
Where the rippling waters flow
Cast a stone and truth ye'll know;
Four times the Major Sabbats mark
In the light and in the dark:
As the old year starts to wane
The new begins with dark Samhain.
When flowers blossom through the snow
Fair Brighid casts her seed to sow.
When winter yields to warmth's return
Let the Beltane fires burn.
As summer turns to Lammas night
First fruits and Grain Gods reach their height.
Four times the Minor Sabbats fall
Use the Sun to mark them all:
At Yuletide, with feast and mirth
We celebrate the God Child's birth.
Spring Equinox, Eostara's fest,
All newborn creatures will be blessed.
When the Sun has reached its height
Celebrate the greatest Light.
Offer thanks at second reaping;
Mabon poised for winter's sleeping.
Cast the circle thrice about,
To keep unwelcome spirits out.
To bind the spell well every time,
Let the spell be spake in rhyme.
Follow this with mind & art,
Bright the cheeks and warm the heart,
And merry meet & merry part
And merry meet again!
Do you remember the first time your God and Goddess called out to you, or when you chose the path you are on? I have always been interested in the wiccan way since I was about 12, never really practiced it until a couple of years ago. I was raised in a household that are Southern Baptist and everything else was satanic, it wasn't the extreme where I couldn't go trick or treating or anything like that, but any other religion was not good. I never felt happy going to church, never felt like I was at home and that something was missing. Six years ago I moved here to San Diego to be with my fiancee, who is now my husband, and I was talking to him one day telling him that I wasn't sure where I fit in, I was raised Southern Baptist, and told him how it made me feel, I looked into being a Catholic, he suggested, from hearing me discuss how I felt, that I look into Wicca, or Paganism, I blinked and told him I have been interested in it since I was 12 and I think I will, I didn't know where to start, I was so lost, I started looking up things on the net, found books. Reading up on the different Gods and Goddesses, slowly started gathering things for my altar. I admit I am still learning and haven't really done much with the holidays, I need to start planning ahead and slowly gathering things that I need to decorate my altar and planning ahead the foods and rituals for the up coming holidays. It wasn't until about a year ago that my God and Goddesses found me, Danu and The Morrigan, and The Horned God. I hear a calling in my soul to get back to the basics and started reading the "starter" books and digging out my year and a day book and starting it again. I am feeling the yearning to learn and the yearning to be witchy, I feel like I am a wiccan and witch.
The Rede of the Wiccae
(The Counsel Of The Wise Ones)
Bide the Wiccan Law ye must,In Perfect Love and Perfect Trust;
Live ye must and let to live,
Fairly take and fairly give.
True in love, ever be,
Lest thy love be false to thee.
With a fool no season spend,
Nor be counted as his friend.
Soft of eye and light of touch,
Speak ye little, listen much.
Ever mind the rule of three,
What ye send out comes back to thee.
This lesson well, thou must learn
Ye only get what ye do earn.
Eight words the Wiccan Rede fulfill -
An it harm none, do as ye will.
Deosil go by waxing Moon,
Sing and dance the invoking Rune;
Widdershins go by waning Moon,
Chant ye then a freeing tune;
When the Lady's Moon is new,
Kiss thy hand to Her times two;
When the Bow rides in the eve
Turn to what you would achieve;
When the Moon rides at her peak,
Then thy heart's desire seek;
When the Sickle shows Her face
Release the old with proper grace.
Greet the Days and greet the Nights
With joy and thanks for all delights.
Sing the seasons all around
Til wondrous awe and love abound
Heed the North wind's mighty gale,
Lock the door & trim the sail;
When the wind comes from the South,
Love will kiss thee on the mouth;
When the wind blows from the West,
Hearts will find their peace and rest;
When the wind blows from the East,
Expect the new and set the feast.
Nine woods in the Cauldron go,
Burn them quick and burn them slow;
Grape and fir and apple tree,
And Hawthorn are sacred to Thee,
Willow, hazel, rowan, birch,
And oak will guide your every search;
Elder be the Lady's tree -
Burn it not or cursed ye'll be.
Birchwood in the fire goes
To tell us true what Goddess knows.
Oak trees tower great with might,
Burn the Oak for God's insight.
Rowan is a tree of power
Causing life and magick to flower.
Willows at the waters stand
To help us to the Summerland.
Hawthorn burn to purify
And draw the faerie to your eye.
Hazel tree, the wisdom sage,
Lends strength that comes with honoured age.
White the flowers of Apple tree,
The holy gift of fecundity.
Grape grows upon the fruitful vine,
Sacred gifts of joy and wine.
Fir's ever greenness declares life
Succeeds beyond any strife.
Heed ye flower, bush, and tree,
And by the Lady Blessed be.
Where the rippling waters flow
Cast a stone and truth ye'll know;
Four times the Major Sabbats mark
In the light and in the dark:
As the old year starts to wane
The new begins with dark Samhain.
When flowers blossom through the snow
Fair Brighid casts her seed to sow.
When winter yields to warmth's return
Let the Beltane fires burn.
As summer turns to Lammas night
First fruits and Grain Gods reach their height.
Four times the Minor Sabbats fall
Use the Sun to mark them all:
At Yuletide, with feast and mirth
We celebrate the God Child's birth.
Spring Equinox, Eostara's fest,
All newborn creatures will be blessed.
When the Sun has reached its height
Celebrate the greatest Light.
Offer thanks at second reaping;
Mabon poised for winter's sleeping.
Cast the circle thrice about,
To keep unwelcome spirits out.
To bind the spell well every time,
Let the spell be spake in rhyme.
Follow this with mind & art,
Bright the cheeks and warm the heart,
And merry meet & merry part
And merry meet again!
Thursday, November 9, 2017
Blood Pressure, DDP Yoga, and Me.
Hello and Merry Meet,
I want to talk about something serious, blood pressure, I have never thought about mine, it has been in the 150/92-86 range for as long as I can remember, never thought about it since I was feeling fine. I went my psych appointment, my blood pressure was taken it was down 147/92, I was like sweet it's down, he informed me that if it keeps up and doesn't come down, I should go see a doctor and talk about getting on meds, Meds! nope no way no how, so now I am doing research, bought some hibiscus tea, reading up on dash plans and how to lower sodium, I have lost weight, went from 385 to 350, I started back up doing DDP Yoga again as of today, I broke down crying and said I am done with this, now it's time to get serious and start eating healthy, I know healthy foods don't taste as good as the junk food, fast food etc, I have cut sodium a lot but not enough, I still reach for the soda, coke zero sugar, which as it has caffeine. I still reach for the Doritos, and ice cream and reese's cups, but now it's time to stop, hubby brought home Harvest snap crisps, they are sugar snap peas fried or baked, very low fat and sodium and sugar, I was skeptical at first and then tried them and I love them. I think instead of counting calories I am going to worry about sodium and fat intake.
I today so far have had two hard boiled eggs, no salt no butter,(used to add salt and butter to them), one cup of greek yogurt, with fresh strawberries that my mother in law prepared for me and sent home with my darling hubby, she put some sugar in them but ah well, so I added that to the yogurt and ate that and I am stuffed, my goal is to eat more fruit and veggies, I hardly eat any, wasn't really raised by parents who were big veggie eaters either, it was either potatoes, green beans, corn, with red meat, mac and cheese and fries, and bread, a lot of processed foods, with salt, and butter and drinking three to four cans of soda a day, now I have one 20 ounce bottle a day, yesterday I didn't have one and my goal today is to not have one as well, my goal is to also drink two and a half liters of water a day. I need to do this, for my blood pressure, and for me.
Breakfast:
Two Hard Boiled Eggs, no salt no butter = 124 mg of sodium and 3.2 grams of sat fat.
Kirkland Organic Green Yogurt 50mg sodium.
Water.
Exercise: 16 mins of DDP Yoga Chair Warrior, (starting over).
I want to talk about something serious, blood pressure, I have never thought about mine, it has been in the 150/92-86 range for as long as I can remember, never thought about it since I was feeling fine. I went my psych appointment, my blood pressure was taken it was down 147/92, I was like sweet it's down, he informed me that if it keeps up and doesn't come down, I should go see a doctor and talk about getting on meds, Meds! nope no way no how, so now I am doing research, bought some hibiscus tea, reading up on dash plans and how to lower sodium, I have lost weight, went from 385 to 350, I started back up doing DDP Yoga again as of today, I broke down crying and said I am done with this, now it's time to get serious and start eating healthy, I know healthy foods don't taste as good as the junk food, fast food etc, I have cut sodium a lot but not enough, I still reach for the soda, coke zero sugar, which as it has caffeine. I still reach for the Doritos, and ice cream and reese's cups, but now it's time to stop, hubby brought home Harvest snap crisps, they are sugar snap peas fried or baked, very low fat and sodium and sugar, I was skeptical at first and then tried them and I love them. I think instead of counting calories I am going to worry about sodium and fat intake.
I today so far have had two hard boiled eggs, no salt no butter,(used to add salt and butter to them), one cup of greek yogurt, with fresh strawberries that my mother in law prepared for me and sent home with my darling hubby, she put some sugar in them but ah well, so I added that to the yogurt and ate that and I am stuffed, my goal is to eat more fruit and veggies, I hardly eat any, wasn't really raised by parents who were big veggie eaters either, it was either potatoes, green beans, corn, with red meat, mac and cheese and fries, and bread, a lot of processed foods, with salt, and butter and drinking three to four cans of soda a day, now I have one 20 ounce bottle a day, yesterday I didn't have one and my goal today is to not have one as well, my goal is to also drink two and a half liters of water a day. I need to do this, for my blood pressure, and for me.
Breakfast:
Two Hard Boiled Eggs, no salt no butter = 124 mg of sodium and 3.2 grams of sat fat.
Kirkland Organic Green Yogurt 50mg sodium.
Water.
Exercise: 16 mins of DDP Yoga Chair Warrior, (starting over).
Tuesday, August 8, 2017
Weighted Blanket/Friendship?/And Update.
Hey all Merry Meet, I know it has been awhile since I have written anything, I have been in a funk. Dealing with my mental issues, started seeing my new therapist, So far she is great. I also found something that helps with my anxiety and panic attacks, calms me down very quickly, it's a weighted blanket. When I start feeling anxious and panicky I grab that and wrap it around me in less than fifteen mins I am calm and able to function again, I recommend getting one, they work for kids with ADD, ADHD, Alzheimer's Patients, people with panic attacks.
Right now the weather is hot, I am looking forward to fall. I love Halloween and fall, I miss being in the Midwest during fall, the smell of the leaves as they lay on the ground, damp and dying, the chill in the air, the smell of the cold in the air, the smell of smoke as someone is burning leaves.
I also broke down and bought a bullet journal and a book on how to bullet journal, never done it before so am eager to try it to get myself organized, I don't know if I'll be ordering the Leonie Dawson workbook this year, she has stopped doing her facebook page and has started doing essential oils and trying to do a pyramid scheme, she is only focused on her academy which now costs 997.00 to join and that is where her real focus is, Normally she does a preorder for her books, but now she isn't doing that this year, I was told either end of October or November is when we can order the books. So I am torn I loved the work book I got for this year, and was thinking of if I don't order the coming years I could jot what I want from it into my bullet journal, we'll see. What are some daily planners, journals and such that you use?
Also, I am not sure anymore about friendships, seems a certain friend and I have lost base/touch once again, We haven't talked in awhile, nor have we done anything together, I am starting to feel that now that she is doing other things and more in touch with another friend that I am on the back burner again, I even suggested we go see the new Annabelle movie together, no response whatsoever. She has stated she wants to start back up our facebook page on the paranormal, haven't seen any posts from her on our page at all, She keeps saying she wants us to keep in touch and to remain friends, but I don't see it. I have texted her and even messaged her on facebook, she'll talk to me for a bit then I won't hear anything from her at all. I still haven't met her boyfriend, nor have I really got to meet her best friend of 20 some years. She was supposed to have come to my house at one time, but canceled on me. I know I know you're probably saying why do you deal with it? I am not sure why...
Anyway, just wanted to give you an update. I promise I will get around to doing witchy things, on here, Any suggestions on what you would like for me to post, talk about etc drop me a comment.
Right now the weather is hot, I am looking forward to fall. I love Halloween and fall, I miss being in the Midwest during fall, the smell of the leaves as they lay on the ground, damp and dying, the chill in the air, the smell of the cold in the air, the smell of smoke as someone is burning leaves.
I also broke down and bought a bullet journal and a book on how to bullet journal, never done it before so am eager to try it to get myself organized, I don't know if I'll be ordering the Leonie Dawson workbook this year, she has stopped doing her facebook page and has started doing essential oils and trying to do a pyramid scheme, she is only focused on her academy which now costs 997.00 to join and that is where her real focus is, Normally she does a preorder for her books, but now she isn't doing that this year, I was told either end of October or November is when we can order the books. So I am torn I loved the work book I got for this year, and was thinking of if I don't order the coming years I could jot what I want from it into my bullet journal, we'll see. What are some daily planners, journals and such that you use?
Also, I am not sure anymore about friendships, seems a certain friend and I have lost base/touch once again, We haven't talked in awhile, nor have we done anything together, I am starting to feel that now that she is doing other things and more in touch with another friend that I am on the back burner again, I even suggested we go see the new Annabelle movie together, no response whatsoever. She has stated she wants to start back up our facebook page on the paranormal, haven't seen any posts from her on our page at all, She keeps saying she wants us to keep in touch and to remain friends, but I don't see it. I have texted her and even messaged her on facebook, she'll talk to me for a bit then I won't hear anything from her at all. I still haven't met her boyfriend, nor have I really got to meet her best friend of 20 some years. She was supposed to have come to my house at one time, but canceled on me. I know I know you're probably saying why do you deal with it? I am not sure why...
Anyway, just wanted to give you an update. I promise I will get around to doing witchy things, on here, Any suggestions on what you would like for me to post, talk about etc drop me a comment.
Thursday, May 18, 2017
Panic Attacks, Depression, Anxiety.
Hello and Merry Meet,
I am sorry I didn't get around to doing a post about Beltane, I will make that up in the next post. I am going to start posting more witchy/Wiccan things on my blog. I had a head cold and then got hit with two major panic attacks last week and then one on Sunday and then one last night. I would not wish this on my worst enemy, if I had any. I know in a few blogs I talked about depression and anxiety and panic attacks. People have asked me to describe it and it is hard too do so as everyone is different. Mine starts with a feeling of worry that builds up and then my stomach starts to jump as if someone is shocking me with a cattle prod and then I can feel my body start to shake, my hands shake, I feel like I can't catch my breath, my heart starts pounding, my body starts tensing up and my muscles clench, I start to go into a flight mode where I feel like I need to run and get somewhere safe. I start to cry, my body is tense but shaking, I start to pace. I start to babble "Help, Help, Help" It lasts for maybe an hour or so and then when I start to come down, I am tried, I am crying, my muscles hurt, my jaw hurts, I am so exhausted I just want to sleep and cuddle up next to my husband. When I have depression, I don't want to eat, I don't want to shower, I don't want to do anything but stay in bed, It feels like I am worthless, I feel like nothing is ever going to get better, I can't function I can't think clearly.
I also have OCD, Bi Polar and PTSD, as well as Agoraphobia. There are times where I cannot leave the house, even the thought of going and sitting outside, stresses me out. It is horrible that I cannot function on days like this. I miss being able to go to the library and to the store and shopping. I do all my shopping online and then my husband does the grocery shopping and sometimes the laundry.
People tell me I need to overcome it, to not let it win, to get over it, yes get over it. I wish people would understand that it isn't as easy as they think it is, everyone, at some point does have bouts of depression theirs tend to go away, for people that have Major Depressive Disorder, it doesn't go away, it can be helped with medications but it never goes away, neither does PTSD, OCD and Panic and Anxiety attacks, we may be fine for a year or more and then BAM!!! It hits out of the blue. For people like me, we do struggle every day to function, we do try to keep in check and we do try to have a normal life, we also tend to hide it and hide how we are feeling until it gets build up- so much that we "explode". I get tired of taking meds and tired of worrying that I am going to have a melt down, as I call my panic attacks, in public, it is embarrassing, and can be scary. For those of you that have a loved one or friend dealing with this, all I can say is, please stop telling them to get over it, please stop telling them don't let it control you, but instead tell them I am here for you, how can I help? We would love to be able to get over it and overcome it, but it is a long hard process. Trust me none of us wants to be this way.
I am sorry I didn't get around to doing a post about Beltane, I will make that up in the next post. I am going to start posting more witchy/Wiccan things on my blog. I had a head cold and then got hit with two major panic attacks last week and then one on Sunday and then one last night. I would not wish this on my worst enemy, if I had any. I know in a few blogs I talked about depression and anxiety and panic attacks. People have asked me to describe it and it is hard too do so as everyone is different. Mine starts with a feeling of worry that builds up and then my stomach starts to jump as if someone is shocking me with a cattle prod and then I can feel my body start to shake, my hands shake, I feel like I can't catch my breath, my heart starts pounding, my body starts tensing up and my muscles clench, I start to go into a flight mode where I feel like I need to run and get somewhere safe. I start to cry, my body is tense but shaking, I start to pace. I start to babble "Help, Help, Help" It lasts for maybe an hour or so and then when I start to come down, I am tried, I am crying, my muscles hurt, my jaw hurts, I am so exhausted I just want to sleep and cuddle up next to my husband. When I have depression, I don't want to eat, I don't want to shower, I don't want to do anything but stay in bed, It feels like I am worthless, I feel like nothing is ever going to get better, I can't function I can't think clearly.
I also have OCD, Bi Polar and PTSD, as well as Agoraphobia. There are times where I cannot leave the house, even the thought of going and sitting outside, stresses me out. It is horrible that I cannot function on days like this. I miss being able to go to the library and to the store and shopping. I do all my shopping online and then my husband does the grocery shopping and sometimes the laundry.
People tell me I need to overcome it, to not let it win, to get over it, yes get over it. I wish people would understand that it isn't as easy as they think it is, everyone, at some point does have bouts of depression theirs tend to go away, for people that have Major Depressive Disorder, it doesn't go away, it can be helped with medications but it never goes away, neither does PTSD, OCD and Panic and Anxiety attacks, we may be fine for a year or more and then BAM!!! It hits out of the blue. For people like me, we do struggle every day to function, we do try to keep in check and we do try to have a normal life, we also tend to hide it and hide how we are feeling until it gets build up- so much that we "explode". I get tired of taking meds and tired of worrying that I am going to have a melt down, as I call my panic attacks, in public, it is embarrassing, and can be scary. For those of you that have a loved one or friend dealing with this, all I can say is, please stop telling them to get over it, please stop telling them don't let it control you, but instead tell them I am here for you, how can I help? We would love to be able to get over it and overcome it, but it is a long hard process. Trust me none of us wants to be this way.
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