Finally Found The One!

Hey all, 
Sorry I haven't blogged in awhile, I have so much to catch up on and so much I want to blog about. So I finally got my book of shadows and let me tell you I found the one, I love love love my new book I got it from this place https://www.etsy.com/shop/CountryPinecones?ref=l2-shopheader-name 

She does excellent work and is a real sweet heart, I will be ordering another book from her. 

 The picture of the cover does not do it justice, in the light you can see a pattern of what looks like ivy and flowers and it really pops, you can get the book blank or filled with information in it already as well as get something on the cover I choose to have a blank cover, it's about 1400 pages front and back.

The paper is from an antique paper mill and good quality. Ya'll I showed this book to my mother-in-law, she thought it was 100 years old! yes the book looks like it has been passed down from Great-Grandmother to Grandmother to Mother to daughter, if you get my meaning. The book took about two weeks to arrive, some of them take about three weeks.

The clasps I picked out, it normally comes with a latch and book locks, I wouldn't go with the book locks and the latches that I have in the picture sometimes do not want to stay closed. I hope you are all doing well. This heat is killing me ya'll, there I go channeling Ember again, I am from the midwest, Missouri and we tend to say Ya'll. I just ordered https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0764354922/ref=oh_aui_detailpage_o00_s01?ie=UTF8&psc=1.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qaw08pU8yCM here is a link to Ember's review on this deck. Amazing I cannot wait to get it. I also just got these in




https://www.etsy.com/shop/AeonMoon?ref=l2-shopheader-name
Beautiful rune set and natural oak wood. 

 
I recommend this shop if you are wanting natural wood witches runes, they gather the wood themselves from the ground when a branch falls, they do not cut the tree at all to get the branches. That is why I picked this shop to buy my witch's runes from. It does come with a booklet, a rune pouch does not come with it, but you can buy one from their shop. 
Sorry for the long blog post but I wanted to show you all what I got and what I have coming in. Take care blessed be.  

Grandma

I just found out today that my grandma passed away, I haven't seen her in ten years I think.  She loved the colors pink and purple and loved to fish, as well as put puzzles together, she loved to read the Alex Cross series by James Patterson, she made the best snicker doodle cookies as well as egg noodles and yeast rolls. She was mother to nine children and several grand children, as well as great and great great, and great great great grand children. She was an amazing strong woman, who after her first husband died leaving her with nine kids worked hard to provide for them until she met her second husband, who also preceded her in death in 2006. Grandma I love you and miss you.  Grandma as I held your hand and looked down I didn't see the age spots or the wrinkles, I saw two hands that comforted her babies and her grandchildren, I saw two hands that lovingly made quilts for her family, and cooked for them, I saw two hands that baked the best snicker doodles and zucchini bread and egg noodles and yeast rolls and cakes and pies, I saw two hands that wiped away the tears of her children and grandchildren and tended to our cuts and scrapes and booboos, I saw two hands holding the brush that brushed our hair and held us when we needed hugs and cuddles, I saw two hands that tended to her husband as he lay dying of cancer, I saw two hands that worked hard to provide for her children after their father (her first husband) passed away at a young age. I saw two hands that held cards and a fishing pole, I saw two hands covered in dirt from the garden as you brought in tomatoes, green beans, and squash, I also saw those two hands smack our bottoms when we were acting up, I saw two hands pouring cups of black cherry koolaid and making bologna and cheese sandwiches, I saw two hands folded in a lap that would always welcome me with hugs and comfort, Thank you grandma for those two hands and for you, Always loved and never forgotten,

Blabbing/Am I Going To Get Scammed Again

Hello and Happy Litha everyone,

How are you celebrating Litha today?  As I stated in my last post, I will be having a picnic with my hubby, later this evening.  I am still awaiting word on when my book is going to ship, I was told it was going to be done June 5th and then a couple days before it was due I get a notice that there is going to be a ten day delay and that it would be done and sent on the 15th then I get another notice that their schedules got messed up and that it would be sent sometime this week, when I asked what day, I get no reply, this is the exact same thing that my scammer did to me, so what do you all think you think I am going to get scammed again, now I have seen that other people have their books that ordered from them, but so did other people that ordered from the person I ordered from?  I will give her until July first then I will get a refund.  This is just so frustrating. Sorry for this rant but yeah you would think that they would be on the ball and get the customer's order shipped, I mean they expect money up front and paid off before working on the book you ordered but then have no issue delaying your item. Wonder if doing a spell would get my book sent out faster LOL, I found something on facebook for homemade Headache Salve 

Stress Headache= Lavender and peppermint essential oils
Migraine- Peppermint and Basil Essential Oils
Congestion= Eucalyptus and Peppermint Essential Oils 
Normal Headache= Peppermint Essential Oil

What You'll Need To Make:
2 glass bowls different sizes
Hot Water
Oils
Small Metal Container, or glass baby food jars with lids
Virgin Coconut Oil
Put hot water into larger bowl, set smaller bowl ontop of larger bowl add in coconut oil, let sit until coconut oil is melted ( I guess however much you want, there were no measurements for this ) add drops of oil enough to where you can smell it, I would say about 1-3 drops, stir gently and pour into container. Let it harden, if you live in a warmer climate you may want to store it in fridge. To use dab onto your fingertips and rub into temples, back of your neck or sinuses or where ever needed. 

If I can find it I also have oil for pain I can't remember if I got it from Lady Gravedancer https://www.youtube.com/user/TheLadygravedancer or Ember Honey Raven   https://www.youtube.com/user/EmberHoneyraven/featured?disable_polymer=1
 But when I find it I"ll post it in my next post as well as Lady Gravedancer's cough drops or cold drops.
Wonderful women I highly recommend their youtube channels, please subscribe to them you won't regret it.  
Oh on another note I am now at 327 or 328, so I am at a 56-55 pound weight loss now. 
 I just felt like Blabbing today. 

Update July 8th I finally got my book of shadows a few days ago, the cover is amazing, however, the paper inside is not archival acid free, it's just plain old printer paper, the paper is hard to get out of the binding as they put the posts in the spine along the side and not through the middle flap, you cannot add more paper or even good quality paper without not being able to add much, also the inside covers are not cloth but printer paper with a printed design on it, and the title page is not hand done as they state but printed out and it was already chipping the ink off when I got it, my husband ended up with it and I am waiting on my new one to come in on Friday from a different person, this one is a practical magic style and is made to look antique. 

Litha

Hello and merry meet everyone, I hope you are doing well today. 
Can you believe that it is almost summer and also the time for Litha, What are you going to be doing on Litha? I think Hubby and I are going to have a picnic, maybe have some french bread, some cheese, grapes, cucumber, hummus, some sliced turkey or chicken, iced tea for me and not sure what for him to drink and I think we may go to the park.  

What is Litha? For me it is the time to honor the Sun God, also the longest day of the year, it is celebrated on or around the first day of summer normally the 21st of June or as close as you can get, so I guess it would be 20-22nd.  This is a time to worship the sun and fire plays a big part, from burning a balefire to lighting candles.  It was a time to celebrate the crops that have grown and thrived, knowing that harvest was around the corner.  

You could decorate your altar by using reds, golds, yellows, summer flowers,such as sunflowers, and herbs, maybe sunflower seeds, perhaps feed the birds the seeds or enjoy them yourself, 

Foods to eat for your litha feast could include
Summer veggies and fruit
Bread, milk, cheese, fish, chicken, fruit breads, cakes, pies, wines

light some sandalwood incense 

Make a pinwheel or a solar wheel or a witches ladder, reaffirm yourself to the God and Goddess. 

This is also the time for hand fasting and weddings. 

No matter how you celebrate the day, I hope you make the most of it and enjoy it and have a blessed and beautiful day. 

Untitled Poem

she sits and watches the world go by
they stop and ask her, how she is
she smiles and replies, I am fine
She smiles and says please sit if only
for a bit, that is if you have the time
No,?, Really I am fine, they walk away
and she just stays, in a daze, her days
so gray. She sits and watches the world go by, 
they stop and ask her how she is.
She smiles and says I'm fine. 
They don't know that she hides
behind her smile, while inside her world is gray. 
She sits day by day and watches the world go by
wishing she were fine. 
~Tracy Kelly, 2018~

Goodbye Mr and Mrs Tyrrell, My Mentor, Friend, Teacher and Second Dad.

Springfield police are investigating what they are calling a double murder discovered Thursday evening.

The victims are a man who taught in area colleges and retired as an assistant superintendent in Mountain Grove schools after three decades and his wife, an Avon saleswoman and volunteer for the elderly, police said.

According to a release from police, Gary Tyrrell, 60, and Jan Tyrrell, 61, were found dead at their home at 3232 S. Greenbrier Ave., about 7 p.m. Police said they don't have a suspect.

Police Lt. Tad Peters wouldn't describe the couple's injuries or specific location in the home where they were found.

Autopsies are being conducted to determine the cause of death for each.https://www.news-leader.com/story/news/crime/2014/05/02/police-investigating-double-homicide/8613855/

 Ex-school superintendent is charged for murders of Gary and Jan Tyrrell

By Mike Landis

SPRINGFIELD, Mo. - A man from Ozark is accused of killing a couple from Springfield, Gary and Jan Tyrrell. Mark Porter, 53, was charged on Friday with two counts of first-degree murder. Part of the evidence against him is DNA on a coffee cup that he discarded that matches DNA on a latex glove found near Jan Tyrrell's body. 

 The Tyrrells were found dead in their home in southeast Springfield on May 2. Police refused to release the causes of death or many other details about the murders. The charging statement released on Friday says Jan
Tyrrell died of blunt force trauma to the head and Gary Tyrrell was shot twice.

Porter was superintendent in the Mountain Grove School District for two school years, 2003-2005. The superintendent's office says those are the only years that he worked in the district.

Gary Tyrrell was a longtime teacher and administrator in the Mountain Grove School District. He was an assistant superintendent to Porter from '03-05. A memorial service for the Tyrrells was in Mountain Grove, where they maintained many friends after they moved to Springfield several years ago.

Gary and Jan Tyrrell, or Mr and Mrs. Tyrell, were great people, Mr. Tyrell, was my high school history teacher in the late 80s and early 90s, Mrs. Tyrrell was the high school librarian for a short time.  I had a rough time in school, I was failing, I was being bullied, I was depressed and wanting to kill myself, One day, this man, this teacher, Gary, came to me and said I would like to talk to you, we sat in his class after the class had ended, and he said look if you don't pull your grades up you're not going to graduate, he goes I know that you are smart, I know that you can do this, I know that you have a life inside, he said if it is okay I am going to talk to your parents and see about tutoring you after class during the time you have study hall and work with you to get your grades up, and if you want to talk I am here.  I sat back and looked at him like yeah, right...I ended up going to his class and he did help me, and I ended up on the honor roll all four years of high school and even graduated, He helped me through some dark times and even kept me from killing myself, I started to have a interest in things again, after graduation I was sad as I wouldn't get to see him again or so I thought, I took a year off and then started college, I picked a civil war history class and I walked into the class and like the others waited for our professor to arrive, I was looking down at my book, skimming through it dreading the class as for me history is boring but yet Mr Tyrrell made it fun and interesting, "Good Evening Class, " I blinked, that voice sounded so familiar, I look up and my eyes go wide, I couldn't say anything I was just so excited, he sits down and pulls out the roll sheet, and starts reading off the names, he stops, when I think he got to mine and he grins and looks up, "Well..., how are you ? Come here," we meet half way and he gives me a big hug, he says to the others, "This is one of my former students she just graduated high school where I was her history teacher, for a big part of the time." He asked if I minded if he talked about me and how I was and how I got to be where I was at that time, I said sure, I cried as he talked about how he saw this dejected kid, who seemed like she had no hope, and was failing and ready to end it, he talked about how I was bullied, and teased, how I was quiet and never spoke up, he talked about how he felt he had to do something, he knew there was a spark in there, He went on to tell them how I made the honor roll, all four years, how my grades improved, how I started coming out of my shell., anyway, It was a great year for me, having him as my professor, after I graduated I was sad once again that I wouldn't get to see this man that became my friend, my mentor and second dad, He practically watched me grow up, I moved to Springfield Missouri, when I was in my late 20s, and about a year later, I was walking down the sidewalk past some houses on Greenbriar, and I kept hearing someone call my name, I look up to see a man standing in his yard, and it was Mr. Tyrrell, I asked him, you live here? He said yep for about 20 some years, I said oh wow, I just live down the block in those apartments, have been for about two years, so we talked for a while, Mrs. Tyrrell came out and we chatted as well, we kept in touch and then in 2011 I moved to San Diego to be with my boyfriend, who is now my husband, and I kept in touch with Mr. Tyrrell on facebook. In late May of 2014  I get a call from my "dad", who I don't speak with and have had a very strained relationship and still do, called me and told me Gary and Jan had been killed, they were murdered, I sat down like someone had punched me in the stomach and I just lost it, I felt like I had lost my dad, he was the man I wanted as a dad and wish he had been my dad, I felt like I couldn't breathe, the air had been sucked out of me, I haven't written about him until now or even really talked about him other than to my husband, as it's been to painful.  I can't express how much he has helped me, and what a kind gentle, soul he was, who really loved teaching and cared about his students, if anyone deserved the teacher of the year award it was this man. 

Mr Tyrrell, Thank you so much for everything that you did for me, thank you thank you thank you, if you hadn't of stepped in when you did, I wouldn't be here writing this today. You are and were my Teacher, Friend, Mentor and second dad. 

link to a website with links to the newpaper stories and such.  https://mylifeofcrime.wordpress.com/2017/01/22/monsters-among-us-mark-porter-killed-gary-and-jan-tyrrell-sentenced-to-two-consecutive-life-terms/

Jules

Dear Jules,
I just found out that you passed away three years ago.  I am so sorry I wish we had kept in touch.  When I heard, all the memories came flooding in, like how I would spend the night at your house and your, mom, who,  also passed not long after you did, would make her tuna noodle casserole, and you and I would watch Clan of The Cave Bear and then go up to your room and listen to music and talk about the boys we had a crush on in school, and we would talk and laugh all night and fall asleep with the radio playing, you always had to have that damn radio on, I never figured out how you could sleep with it on.  I always thought you were cool and I loved your clothing style and how you didn't take shit off of anyone, I remember walking the halls with you at school and sitting with you, Heath, Sheena, and Marcy at lunch, I remember when we used to walk the square late at night and around town, I remember how we went to your grandpa's and we climbed that big ass hill, I didn't really want to but your grandpa said it was tradition for friends and family to climb ___(name left out), hill. I remember how we would pass notes in class and put L/Y/L/A/S F/F at the end, I still have a few of those notes that you gave to me, Jules I am so sorry we lost touch for awhile, until I found you on facebook and saw that you were married and had your little girl finally.  Remember when we were riding in the back of your mom's truck late at night down the gravel road and we were trying to come up with a song, it went "The night is dark, the moon is full the wolves are howling in the night..." that is as far as we got, we used to listen to Ozzy's Bark at the moon and the beastie boys, I remember you used to always wear that damn black trench coat and I threatened to burn it a few times, LOL, you were tough on the outside but so sweet and caring on the inside, you never let anyone or anything get you down, you always had a smile and you were always there to listen and make me smile when I was feeling down, you had my back and I hope I had yours, you became my sister, my friend, when Brat, moved away, I am just in shock Jules, that you are gone, I wish I could have kept in touch, I did try to find you again when I had to change my facebook and sent you a friend request, now I know why you never answered, you were fighting a long hard fight, Jules, It isn't fair, man, 40 or 41 was way to young to go, I know you are now with your husband, Mike, died four months ago this year also of cancer, Jules, I don't want to say goodbye, I keep thinking about how you were and all the good times we had, I just saw pictures of your little girl and she looks so cute and so much like you, I tried to find out where she is now, I am hoping that she is with her big brother, Man Jules, I can't say goodbye, I'll say see you later 
L/Y/L/A/S F/F, Tracy -N- Jules B/F/F remember Jules, this is how we signed it, I still do Jules, I still do, 
p.s. I remember how much you loved kiwi and you got me started loving them as well, I'll eat a few in memory of you and some damn crab legs,
p.p.s. see you later gator.....I am waiting to hear you say after while crocodile...

*This letter is to one of my best friends in high school, we met back in 89 and kept in touch up until 2014, she passed away in 2015 of stomach cancer, she was only 40, or 41.*